Release

You know I started this blog on my sweet Joey’s birthday Jan 2, 2018.  It took me forever to decide to do it.  I wanted to, I did but obviously not bad enough to make it happen.  I remember procrastinating for months before even putting my plans on paper.  I talked it over and over in my head until I finally set a deadline to it.  It would be painful but symbolic, scary but healing, hard but worth it.  I tossed it all around many times over.

I was not looking forward to the agony I felt was waiting for me in the depths of my heart.   I had tucked away my grief there for far too long.  It had been 10 years.  While there is never a time limit on grieving the loss of your child I felt that God had so much in store ahead for me if I’d only……….

I had not been able to “let go of the stone”.  In my mind that was letting go of Joey, somehow accepting that I was ok being without him but that was far from true.  I will never be ok with him not being here with me.  I don’t love that there is no one calling me Ma and I will never hear that again in this lifetime.  However I knew in order to move forward I had to at least acknowledge that he was gone.  YES, it took me TEN years.

About a year ago I was introduced to Essential Oils through a dear church friend.  I had started using them in my diffusers just because they smelled nice.  Then I began reading about and researching them.  I soon discovered the amazing support that can provide for my emotional health.  I thought if I were going to head out on this journey of moving life forward without Joey in it I needed all the help I could get.

I am an avid user and Distributor for Young Living now and so I ordered the Feelings Kit to help me through this blogging journey.  I used an oil called Release first to diffuse every time I wrote.  Friends, I never imagined how well this beautiful kit would help me.  Each morning I started up an incredible mist of Release and guess what happened?  The waterworks began.  I cried like I have never cried before.  Every single day as I wrote, I cried.  I realized that what I’d been procrastinating about was exactly what I needed.  I needed to face this giant called grief, head one.

Although I’d cried many times over the last 10 years I had never done so with the intention of acceptance.  Through prayer and the use of these amazing God-given oils I have been able to grieve in a purposeful way and I am so very grateful.

If you feel like this is something you are interested in please comment below and I will tell you all about it.  You can also join my education Group  The Oily Kinship to learn more or please feel free to take a look at my website Diannes Oily Life.  I am so happy to get you started and on your way to a tremendous supportive healing.  Until then God Bless you friend.