You know I started this blog on my sweet Joey’s birthday Jan 2, 2018. It took me forever to decide to do it. I wanted to, I did but obviously not bad enough to make it happen. I remember procrastinating for months before even putting my plans on paper. I talked it over and over in my head until I finally set a deadline to it. It would be painful but symbolic, scary but healing, hard but worth it. I tossed it all around many times over.
I was not looking forward to the agony I felt was waiting for me in the depths of my heart. I had tucked away my grief there for far too long. It had been 10 years. While there is never a time limit on grieving the loss of your child I felt that God had so much in store ahead for me if I’d only……….
I had not been able to “let go of the stone”. In my mind that was letting go of Joey, somehow accepting that I was ok being without him but that was far from true. I will never be ok with him not being here with me. I don’t love that there is no one calling me Ma and I will never hear that again in this lifetime. However I knew in order to move forward I had to at least acknowledge that he was gone. YES, it took me TEN years.
About a year ago I was introduced to Essential Oils through a dear church friend. I had started using them in my diffusers just because they smelled nice. Then I began reading about and researching them. I soon discovered the amazing support that can provide for my emotional health. I thought if I were going to head out on this journey of moving life forward without Joey in it I needed all the help I could get.
I am an avid user and Distributor for Young Living now and so I ordered the Feelings Kit to help me through this blogging journey. I used an oil called Release first to diffuse every time I wrote. Friends, I never imagined how well this beautiful kit would help me. Each morning I started up an incredible mist of Release and guess what happened? The waterworks began. I cried like I have never cried before. Every single day as I wrote, I cried. I realized that what I’d been procrastinating about was exactly what I needed. I needed to face this giant called grief, head one.
Although I’d cried many times over the last 10 years I had never done so with the intention of acceptance. Through prayer and the use of these amazing God-given oils I have been able to grieve in a purposeful way and I am so very grateful.
If you feel like this is something you are interested in please comment below and I will tell you all about it. You can also join my education Group The Oily Kinship to learn more or please feel free to take a look at my website Diannes Oily Life. I am so happy to get you started and on your way to a tremendous supportive healing. Until then God Bless you friend.